Water Your Worth

Let’s talk about sides and no, I’m not talking about appetizers 🙂 , but rather the sides that separates.

I recently counted how many countries and places I have slept in the past 3 plus years. This came about because I was asked about my travels and then I just got curious. So, I have lived in 9 countries, passed through 13 and laid my head for sleep in 57 +/- places. You could say that I have become quite experienced with living the traveling and minimal life and I would agree while also feeling the weight of it all.

If you have read my previous post about the hardened hearts all around the world then this is a bit of a deeper or caveat of that one and for those that are just not clicking in… I have seen through all the experiences that everyone everywhere is ultimately longing for love and real connection but there is this hardening, this de-structering/separating from the peace that comes from unconditional love – this love I have only felt and seen through my relationship with God which became even deeper as my relationship with Yeshua does as well.

I have this gift to be able to see the big picture and also really zero in and observe. What is interesting about this gift is that most people do not think that I am observing as much as I am and it seems that this has become even more heightened with the increased sensitivity of all senses as a mom. I have also always been able to pick up on energies of others and this all can be quite exhausting especially as an only parent to a very active child in a very upside down and damaged world (hurt people hurt people, ya know), but somehow God gives me even more strength, discernment and energy making it through each day (aka our daily bread). Another gift I have is the ability to be a safe space for others. Through my life I have had strangers and people known approach me with their stories and usually a hug at the end. I do not share these attributes about me in to boast of any kind, but rather to give a greater insight to you who choose to read on why I say some of the things I say.

So, enough about me… let’s get back to the non appetizer sides talk 🙂

Sides. A side can be physical or internal and what I have seen and felt is all of the above. People are hurting, confused and longing, and I am included in this talk of people, everyone everywhere is being impacted by the world at large in some way. I have been a guest at a lot of places in the past few years and as a guest I am brought in to people’s lives on a very real way. A home or place of work is a foundational place and so I find it incredibly important to hold respect, adapt to their comforts/ways of living or doing things while also adding to the environment in some way. I have heard so many stories and seen a variety of ways of living and I now feel called to share a little and the message I have received through prayers.

Limiting mindset, attachments, judgements and separations are some of the main observations which all stem from a deep seated root of fear. One of the most difficult to both witness and be effected by is the dis-connection. The mindset that one way of thinking is the “right way” and “everyone else is wrong” is so prevalent. I too have had my moments of thinking, ‘wow this one group of people are really judgy but yet are not actually following the way they say but the way others tell them to…’ As, I caught myself observing this way of others while also have this judgmental thought, I gave it to God and received this in prayer, ‘”They” are still all my children’ and then the received the Bible verse Hebrews 6:10, “You belong to God, and he won’t forget the love you have shown his people.”. My hear started to ache as I considered what God must feel in seeing all humanity, all of His children, and how removed from Him the source – ultimate and true love, THE creator of life itself… Gosh it is heavy and sinks deep.

Seems like everyone is taking some kind of side in every single topic and while it is good to have your own voice and way that is best for you… is it giving honor to the life that was given to you?

I have a lot of insights and realizations but when it comes to a lot of things I do my best to just hold space and let people people. I know it is not my place to hold judgment and have learned that trying to debate or ask others to see my views ends up driving a wedge deeper, but what I can do is let God work through me and my life while adding every interaction in my heart for God in prayer.

Have you been put on the sides, chosen sides and or forgotten whose side is most important? Choosing God, the one who is ALWAYS on your side is ready for you to be on His team more than any other.

Sides, sides, sides… everyone has one these days but there is only one that can make a difference…