Water Your Worth

I have been mulling over this blog post for the past week and it continues to get my attention to write so I guess there is purpose in it. I tend to try to keep my blogs somewhat easily digestible and out of controversial talks but with allowance of thought provocation. This post… made me nervous because it will challenge some, cause others to turn away from me and yet still there will be some that will have a bit of a sigh of relief to know that I put it out. I will also preface that I, in my mind, am one of the worst (will go in to more through this post), and maybe that is exactly why it is just as important that I type it out.

God, the creator of all the heavens and the earth, the one who gave His breath so that we may have life, not only made us BUT made us in His image and likeness. Can we all just take a moment to sit with that? God doesn’t make mistakes and all through existence He has continually worked on proving that what He made is good and He loves dearly. We are made on purpose and in His likeness. Therefor, everything and every way that we either turn from that, hide that, manipulate or deny that, takes us further from the truth of God’s perfection in ALL.

Now, as I continue I will honestly say that I not only went against God’s image of me often but I also perverted and misused the image He made me to be often for a good chunk of my life. The more I have separated myself from all that I was, the connections I have had and the life that I made, the more I see and have adjusted accordingly – and oh my goodness so much has changed within me, the way I see and how I participate (or not) in this world. This world is a literal battle field and our lives/souls are at stake. Since the fall of Eden this world has been ruled by sin with an ever increasing pull to the ultimate sin – separating God’s children away from Him forever.

As we are all aware, it is the month of October and a lot of countries and cultures participate in an annual witch’s ceremony called halloween, all hallow’s eve or samhain. Although it has been coated with fun and getting candy I am going to take things in the more realistic route. There is nothing sweet about this tradition, it is not only rooted in the separation from God but it is celebrated and encouraged to be other than; those that participate outside of the partying and trick or treating are performing rituals of darkness that enlists more souls and create power. Often times things that are not of God tend to be smothered in “fun”, alcohol and disguises with a subtle undertone of mockery of life that has been made easily acceptable to the masses. I was one that participated in the party side of things with the many costumes (dressed as a man, a whore, a historical character… I was a wild one for a season of my life), I also knew of some of the energies associated with the witch side of things and due to my ability since childhood to sense and know the spiritual realm, I have read cards and allowed myself to be open to more than just the light/good of spirit. So, as stated, I am one of the worst but God is using me for His glory and continues to remind me that my old is gone and who I am now is continually getting better. There are several days through each week that I repent and mourn the disgrace I commited to my body and God’s creation, it literally brings me to tears and disgust when I do. Each time I am given the opportunity to either allow the devil to convince me that I am worthless or I stand firm in knowing that I am forgiven and am a beautiful and worthy child of God.

So, the point of all of this and at this time is to hopefully instill some insight or a moment to ponder if dressing up or creating a “holiday” that is far from Holy for our families feels right or are there other things that can be done to counteract the darkness of this world? I for one refuse to participate anymore and although I have not figured out a counter tactic yet, I trust that God will lead me accordingly in the best way to honor Him more and to continually choose life. As always, the choice is yours. I will only say this last tidbit of truth… there is no real love greater than the love that comes from our Father and it is always there for you, always.