Water Your Worth

Here is the truth. I started the Water Your Worth site, instagram and facebook because I wanted water to be the theme with quality in mind in order to sell high end holistic water machines.

I had just left my ex with my six month baby and while I said and knew that God would provide I was also getting caught up in the noise from others telling me that I needed to figure things out. I looked tirelessly as much as possible in to online work or really anything that I could do while being a mom on my own with no housing, car or real support system. I had talked with the lady who became my sponsor in the water machines and kept seeing ads for the water machines and the business every where I looked. So, I handed it to God and prayed about it for three days asking that if I was supposed to do this water machine business that the deposit for the payment plan option would be provided. I also (as I still do) continued to apply for other work with a lot of scams presenting themselves.

What happened next I was not actually prepared for and I jumped full in while now I realize that I should always still ask God for His counsel first. I went to a church and a man with his wife came in. His wife had dementia and she was automatically drawn to my son and I. We both chatted and then enjoyed church service. After the service I was sharing an update with the pastor about how a friend had invited us to go to them and that they had a place available for us to get situated in. The man and his wife held back and then he said to me, “I don’t know why but before I left for church the Holy Spirit told me to grab my check book. Do you need help?” I immediately started bawling and saying yes that I do need help and that I am also going to be leaving in a few days. He wrote me a check and handed it to me. I did not open it until later in that afternoon and it happened to be the amount that I needed for the deposit for the machine and to get the business going with a memo on the check saying, “God is good”.

I jumped in immediately. The sponsor lady told me that she already had a sale to put under my name to get me going and I began to establish my online presence in order to gain some kind of traction to educate on the machine while enabling the ability to sell them. Now, the machine and the business plan is top notch. However, my presence and livelihood was under massive reconstruction. Not only was I attempting to establish a new business, I was continuing to look for online work and be a mom while enduring quite a lot from others telling me what I was not doing correct. The supposed sale ended up not happening and the apartment that was thought of for us ended up not being available and so the journey with God as a nomad continued with my child.

I carried the water machine with us everywhere and used it to it’s fullness. Somehow the monthly payment for it was always available in my account and I truly enjoyed the benefits and uses. I talked about it everywhere we went and yet the thing that everyone was focused on was the fact that I was not in our own housing and that it didn’t make sense. Nothing of this world truly makes sense when we are living a life that is more reliant on God than what the world thinks, but here is the thing… while I had very little compared to most we were still living and things were still taking place that needed to.

In September I (unknowingly) plugged the machine in to an outlet with a voltage that it could not handle and had to send it in for repair. The repair person told me that it was because of the voltage and that I had to pay 550 dollars in order to get it back. At that moment I didn’t even have the monthly payments and had to pay for our transportation to the next house sitting job. I called and talked with the manager three times and explained to him that it is unfair because no where on the manual or even on the outlet that I used did it say anything about a voltage limit precaution. I told him that if he won’t work with me on this then at least send it up to the manual creators that there should be some written awareness of this so that others do not experience this because if I had known, I would not have done it. He did try to work with me on the price a little but I just simply could not gamble with what money I had which absolutely had to be used for our transportation.

What happened next was a series of letting go’s, humblings and then the remaining balance of the machine being pink slipped and sent to collections. No jobs of any kind were presenting themselves, not even house sitting and not only went completely without but was put in a shelter and was in God’s complete mercy. God needed me to know that He is the only sustainer and also needed me to up level my faith, prayers and reliance with Him while also strengthening my authority with Him and as a mother. There is too much about all of this to tell in this blog but it will definitely be in full detail in the book. What happened though was we somehow maintained youthfulness with little sleep and no real self care regime, we ate canned vegetables and a lot of peanut butter, put baking soda in tap water to neutralize the chlorine in order to have drinking water and yet were told regularly that we looked great, stayed healthy and were provided for miraculously when we needed something. God is greater than any supplement, machine, business, funding or idea.

I joined a church nearby and we were immediately very active in the community, from Sunday worship to Bible Study and prayer meetings and even evangelizing on the streets. Through all the travels and experiences, I see a lot of life that most people are not aware of. I experience more than most want to even process and yet my faith just gets bigger through it all.

So, while I intended for this name to be for sales, God intended it for His glory. The more I read the Bible the more I see on how God is working through me. My favorite is when He leads me to look into a specific book in the Bible to get what He is trying to work on me with or relay His point to me. Just as the Spirit of our Father hovered over the seas to tame them, He has done the same thing with me. Bringing me in and through the chaos of the world, making me able to silence the noise of others and anchoring me to Him. “When you drink the water that I have, you will never go thirsty..” Jesus is the living water that matters more than anything. We might still drink water but our thirst changes as we crave more of Him instead of what the world thinks, does and could provide. Only when He fills you up out of complete dryness can we realize that Everything comes from God and it is His to work with (through you, for you and with you). Once we were told it was time to leave and to continue with our journey, I knew that everything had to change, Jesus needed to be at the center of it all and I needed to create greater counsel with Him.

Several people (myself included) have been praying for our settling in life as no one can really imagine living the way we do and definitely don’t think it is best. While I agree that it is not “normal” to this world’s standards, the Bible proves that it is not actually that foreign in God’s and there is no denying the ways my child and I have advanced in life, been provided for and kept. I love seeing how God puts the exact thing in our life that my child needs for his developments and that my son operates at a completely different level than most his age because of how much life he has experienced. I ended up in the shelter because I was tired of the travels and wanted to stop the way of life we were living. God allowed it, not for material gain but for His glory. “You know what… I have come to accept it all with great appreciation and will go wherever and however God needs me to because He is greater and always provides.”, was a bold statement I made in response to an adopted family member through the travels when they asked if we had been able to settle.

Your worth is not defined by what you have, where you are or even what you do… Your worth is established by the one who made you, the one who said I need a person like this in my great creation tapestry and I have plans for them. Your worth is priceless because of the one who willingly went through incredible suffering and death to rise out of the grave and still teach with miracles paid for you to have life and a connection with the one the calls you His. Water Your Worth is nothing I can bring you or sale to you but what is brought through me by Him who loves you. It is up to you on how you continue to water that worth for yourself and life with Him.

You are worthy!