Water Your Worth

The more I write in my manuscript on my history and all that God pulled me out of and saved me from, the more I repent and I found myself thinking this – ‘I’m probably not going to get to heaven… but I won’t stop doing my best and most importantly I will make sure it stops with me and the new is established with my son.’

If you have read any of my posts or watched any of my youtube testimonies then you will know that I take the blessing of being a mother very seriously. I was recently told by the Holy Spirit and confirmed with six strangers that my greatest ministry is in being a mother. You see our children are our Father’s, He bestowed the blessing as He chose and He has put great trust in the keeping of these children. Seems like the more we “progress” in this weird world the more serious we have to take this role as a ministering mother. Our children are His and He wants us to shepherd them accordingly.

I am damaged goods being refreshed in to some what of a version that was intended and I pray that my transgressions will be blotted out and I will be able to see Him, I know He loves me and He never left me through the dark days but it is more important that I show my child/children how to live for our God. I love God so much, I love the immeasurable amount of love He has for us and all His creation, I love doing things for His great good and glory, I love that Jesus died and rose so that I might even be able to have this current ability to connect and live fully away from addictions and out of the darkness, I love how the Holy Spirit guides and lets me know when He is present… I love God. I loved God as a child and had a special connection with Him and the angels He put around me, but the enemy got a hold of me for a good chunk of life and now that I have been brought back into family… I don’t care if I don’t get in to heaven, I want to do right by Him and want to make sure that my son gets to Him when the time comes. I’m not going back and I’m not giving up. I will do my best and I will sing His praises in all things because I know it what it is like to be without and how His grace overcomes and His mercy brings me to my knees. I fell in to the trap of the enemy early and was not supported well in who I was or the things that I brought to the parents in my life which just caused the slip to become a slide. I know how important it is that my children are brought up for God and held up in prayer and discipleship with loving support. I know that this is one of my greats missions in life and why.

I may not be a saint but I know I am loved through it all and trusted to continue with purpose now. By the way, do you know how much you truly are totally totally totally loved?! It is so mind blowing to me that yes the three totally’s are necessary. Your life is worthy, the impact you make is worthy and I happen to know intimately that no matter what you have done, God still says you are worth it.