Water Your Worth

There is something about being a parent that is just so great in every way – big, small, awesome and difficult. There are several times when I have chuckled with God and said, “I see what you did there.”, as I hear Him talking to me as His child in the ways that I have with the child He has put me in charge of. I believe we are given a beautiful opportunity to get to know our heavenly Father greater as we are parents, so much growth and self sacrifice.

Nothing is just mine anymore, well I have my laptop, phone and clothes but for the most part there is always a thinking of my child more than myself. My kid has better and more clothes than me, I make sure he gets more out of something when given the opportunity to get things for us, even my space and time is for him. There are definitely times when rest seemed to be none existent and I try to communicate that mom is tired and to give me a moment but it quickly shifts to, “Okay, let’s go.” as I move it to a prayer under my breath of, “Lord, help me be as best I can today.” I have had bad days and we have had some bad moments but for the most part we face things and carry on.

Last night was one of those nights where I gave up my own comfort to make sure that when I heard his snot disturb his smooth breathing I would take care of it instead of trying to get my own sleep. When we have the time and he wants to go to a park that is a 45 or 60 minute walk to get to, I gather up what is needed and carry us to the park. If I am in the middle of something and he needs me, I stop and make sure he is tended to and usually relaxing is only given to me when there is a nap. There is a constant letting go of what I want with greater focus on what my child needs.

While this can be tiring it is also so incredibly life giving and full of love that is greater than I know how to explain. You see I am able to do all of this because of my child and the strength Jesus provides for us both. I am very hands on and enjoy making sure that my child is developing more than well. I love being a mom and know that I am honestly at my best when I am. It is so worth it.