Water Your Worth

Living with what we have and based off of what is available at each home, hostel, hotel or shelter allows our roots to dive deep in to the truth of God being The sustainer, while also stirring up creativity that never would have been thought of before. We know that God is not pleased with grumbling over situations and there is a greater level of representation shown when we can choose to trust and walk with a smile through the trying times. While yes, I would like for things to be different, I also know that God knows me better than I know myself and He Will do what only He can do for us.

One thing that has fascinated me through the trials is how I have been able to make the most out of things and never let my son know anything is wrong – in fact there have been plenty of times that he has told me, “God provides everything!” We have made little cabbage and cheese tacos for dinner when there was no ways to cook or store anything. We have had strawberry and bread picnics when that was all I could afford at a market, and loooved it. We have relished in bread and butter and had oh so many different ways of eating peanut butter. Once I learned how to make pancakes without the pre-packaged boxes we pancakes twice a week 🙂 ! There have been times when we couldn’t get bread but had just enough ingredients to make some bread and that is also super fun because my boy really enjoys making things with me. Recently, there is not a bowl available to do any mixing but I had a large storage ziploc bag and so we we were able to make flour tortillas with what was available still. And yes there have been times when all I cared about was my child eating instead of me… all of this brings me such delight because not only are we able to enjoy but we are more and more resilient through it all.

The next fascination through all this is how everyone around and beyond our experiences sees us. Somehow God sustains us in such a way that we glow, are strong and healthy. There are so many lessons that I have to share with others but one that I cling to most of all is God, in prayer, in Word, in becoming and in representation. If Yeshua can endure the cross so that I can live, then I can endure some minor discomforts and unknowns as He sorts out everything. He is worthy of it all and that is the most real thing. I don’t always know how things will be but I know that He sees everything and I give Him all the glory – every bit of my strength, every creative idea, every comfort… everything is in His great will and plans and I am so grateful.