Water Your Worth

So often God places me in either locations to be of service or to be a witness, all of which I know is on purpose. Currently, we are in a small town with good nature around and it just so happens that it is down the road from the Messenger International office building. I took this as a little nudge from Holy Spirit and decided to take a random walk without any idea why but that I felt that I just needed to visit.

Messenger International is a Faith based Holy Spirit driven organization that focuses on not only sharing the good news but igniting the call to discipleship through books, a daily devotional app, podcasts and other courses. Over the summer I had made a small tithing donation to this organization because I appreciated what I was being fed and felt God encourage me to do so – this is not the focus but the fact that they took the time to send me a postcard and a magnet that says, “Because everyone needs to know.” and since we do not have a place to call our own at the moment the magnet moves around with us in the Bible (along with the postcard). So, as I saw that this building was on the map nearby, I just knew I had to at least go.

I found out about the messenger app after reading the book by John Bevere “The Awe of God”. This book was gifted to me by a sister in Christ that we went to church with while living in a shelter in the Caribbean and then I was called to gift it to another sister after I read it. I do not know about other shelters but this one was one of the trials of perseverance that I was gifted along this journeying and this book was a treasure that while it was instructed to read a chapter a week, I spent my nights without sleep just not being able to put it down. I cried as I soaked it in and felt the presence of the Lord as I read about His incredible awesomeness filling huge stadiums and I put tidbits of wisdom in my pocket on how to keep my child holding on to the wonder of our truly awesome God. After downloading the app, I also started following some of the talks on Youtube and even had a small thought of, ‘I wonder if there is work there for me…’ but, I have also been brought into a great surrender than what already is pretty great in the fact that God really needs to me to trust in Him fully, so I dismissed it without any further investigating on my end.

Before coming to this current space I had shared with a Pastor that I felt like this was a bit of a reset space for us before getting back to taking care of another home with animals again. I needed to re-align with God, hearing Him more clearly and walking confidently, obedient in just simply knowing that He is God and will establish my hands and feet for Him. I knew that the nature and quiet area was what we needed for proper clearing of all the noise of the big city, while also separating from so much of the spiritual warfare that happens as one is living in a capital area (yes, it seems from my experiences, that every capital area is filled with lots of dark spirits and activity).

So, the day comes when I feel it is time to just make the super random uninvited walk to this business. I had no idea what to expect and no expectations and am sure the front administration lady that greeted us as we walked in felt that as I said, “Ummm… I don’t really know. I read the Awe of God and follow some talks and saw that this was here so felt I should just come by…”. She didn’t make me feel as awkward as I felt, but instead said, “Oh sure. Let me see if one of our team members is available and can give you a tour around.” So we meet Joe and some other staff as we get a tour. Apparently, it just so happens (no coincidences in God’s world) that this was the day that they were actually at the office and it was a lovely building filled with calm and joy. There is a common theme of how Holy Spirit just led the right people into the organization for the exact role needed and that there was big Faith steps made. Everyone was connected in covenant for and with Him. I was among people who found value in the ways that I was choosing to live and that it was not scary or unusual to them. I was refreshed feeling supported even if just for that moment of the tour and meeting of brothers and sisters working at that space, I felt the comfort sweep over me as He let me know that I was indeed shifting out of the valley of darkness to walk closer with Him. This last sentence has me crying as I feel His confirmation in what I am feeling and sharing – Holy Spirit presence tears have no words to describe them, they just start flowing out of the eyes as the heart seems to stop and expand all in the same beat.

God doesn’t make mistakes and when we live knowing that all is brought through by Him, there is a greater appreciation that comes with these kinds of “happen stance” placements. I left with two new books, a journal notebook for my son and a great tipping point sense that we are in the Hands of the Master – a worthy place to be.

“For God, who said, “Let light shine out of darkness,” is the One who has shone in our hearts, to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Messiah Yeshua.” (2 Corinthians 4:6) I am encouraged more to “Stay Lit” as the journal cover says and I am so grateful to be reminded of that light. Hallelujah.