Water Your Worth

“Why do you think people experience trials?” was a question I was asked once by a fellow nomad that was recounting all that they experienced in a certain decade of their life. “I think it is only in those times that we truly draw nearer to God.”, was part of my explanation. I say part of my explanation because this was a much broader and continued topic with this person as seeds of faith were planted bringing about more questions and… feelings.

“You don’t fully come alive until you are willing to die for someone else.” – just one of the many aha connections moments that I found appreciation for through reading the book, “Saints, becoming more than “Christians”” by. Addison D. Bevere. This book was one of those ways Holy Spirit leads in to the next connecting thing as my eyes were lit up upon seeing it at the Messenger International building and it wasn’t a book that was recommended to me by the guide but once I picked it up they immediately agreed that I should take that one. This sentiment hit my being so deep as I knew very well what this meant, and will add on later.

“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, when you face trials of many kinds…” (James 1:2) I will say that it takes some maturing with deep understanding that ALL is God’s Will. “… He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous.” (Matthew 5:45) What I have seen and found is that even the furthest from God will ask for a prayer from someone they know that prays or will let out a sigh with, ‘Lord help’ attached to it when they are faced with trials that they know they just cannot face alone… don’t want to and know that they are not supposed to. You see, it is in the trials that we get to dig in deeper to and with The Creator. It is when we break that we let Him in, when we start to release our own control and will to begin to see His great Hands at work. Now, I am not going to try and take away the pain that trials and suffering can produce or say that it is not hard still but rather ask that, if possible, there be an expanding of perspective.

As any of you that have read any of my blogs are aware, I am a mom, on my own and without our own place to call home. But! Here is the beauty of that… God has brought me into greater life by putting me in a position of not only knowing I have someone (or many) to die for but that I also have turned to greater (with continual efforts) reliance on Him. I literally cannot boast about anything on my own as I know that the only way things happen is because He allows. “not by works, so that no one can boast.” (Ephesians 2:9) I am continually in awe with God in our life but one thing that I have processed and come to realize is that He made it possible for me to be a mom and knew that it was only in that time of becoming a mom that I would step back on the path with Him. I know it all has its divine orchestration and parts of my healing and becoming so, I will not call it a side step or distraction but just a rather necessary in the refining. And what better way to get my attention that to see the danger in raising a child without Him, in control of a man who did not have full control of his own self or livelihood – it was nothing short of a miracle the way things lined up for my child and I to leave and I think of it often to remind my weak humanness of how on purpose everything is. But! He cannot orchestrate His perfect plans if we are always stepping in with our “own works”, not saying we are to be lazy as we know He doesn’t like that but, we are to be obedient in His directions and actually allow them over our own ideas and understandings. I have been a go-getter, having to make decisions for myself due to the mistakes I made, so relinquishing the reigns, you could say, is a process and sometimes it is only in the trials that this is truly brought forth.

“Woe to those who quarrel with their Maker… Does the clay say to the potter, ‘What are you making?’” (Isaiah 45:9) “We are the clay, You are the potter; we are the work of Your Hand.” (Isaiah 64:8)

We are because He made us and it is in the “breaking” that actually invites Him in to fill the cracks and begin the re- creating, or rather the real creating, the creating that was supposed to be before the world took hold of us and an image was created that was not ours to be…

He wants you to come back to Him. He wants your attention. He needs to establish the works of His hands for His great image of it all. It really comes down to this. Are you willing to break, like really break – break the image of yourself, break your heart open, break the mindset established by the overwhelm of knowledge in this world, break even your spirit and your willingness to call out to the One that created you and ask to be brought into His perfect Will for you?