Water Your Worth

“The Lord will fight for you… you need only to believe.”, this was the only thing I heard in response to my sobs in repentance and my prayers for the very real problem to be fixed.

As shared in a previous post, I allowed my own panic and concerns of how the world and others continued to see me to affect my real trust in God to make the way and be Jehovah Jireh. Out of desperation to make something happen, to get us more stable and to prove that God does provide and that I have found a way… I fell for a scam of deception, lied and then got caught up in a web with my name being effected and responsible for a chunk of money that I had no way of taking care of. The fraudsters assured me that this wasn’t going to happen and that they would do everything possible to make sure that my name was cleared, lying with a comfort that they by no means wanted this to happen to me… but it did and all I could do was turn myself in, repent and return to relying on my Father knowing that He made it so perfectly and miraculously possible for my child and I to leave a dangerous situation and that He would not go back on His word.

I love how God tends to use what we know in order to bring us out of what was. After a couple months of greater surrender, I was at a return home and pet sit – the same home and pets that the scam started at – and God had already started showing up with blessings of new boots and clothes for me, new shoes and socks for my child and so many items for groceries. (As mentioned in a previous post my boots had been a prayer that was needed to be answered and he not only answered but answered in such a perfect fit and care all around.) I received another email that was very similar to the start of the scam email which brought me to make the call and confirm that they were real people and not out to take from me and that my name was safe. I confirmed the questions they had and was given the update that my great aunt had passed away last year and had a gift for me. This was a lot to process in a lot of ways that I won’t get into here but, will share that it shook me. I was still skeptical as time continued and there was not much communication or reception of anything but, no matter what I was thankful and continuously hopeful knowing that God knows that there is literally nothing I can do.

The day came when not only were funds allowed but I was blessed in ways of a companies giving campaign, a ministries single mother benevolence gift and even a helper with a hotel room for a week asking for less than half of the repayment… all this made it possible for me to not only pay off the scam debt and clear my name (hallelujah!) but, it also made it possible to where I really only had to pay off the amount that the scammers added on to what I had given them and have been able to get us a place for a month and get us groceries and a couple of other little life things – woo! Hallelujah indeed!

Here is the even greater aspect of it all. Not, only was I redeemed with my name and this financial scam but, the ministry that blessed us also was the one that we happened to walk up on (no coincidences in God’s ways) one day and the schedule was made miraculously available to where they were able to spend time praying over and with myself and my son, blessing us with gifts of time and other items as well. One of the items given were gift cards for groceries while at the hotel and a gift card that allowed us to get new underwear as well. The other company giving gift was the same company that blessed us with new shoes and clothes as well! Wow God wow! So full of thanks and adoration.

“The Lord will fight for you. You need only believe.” I focused on this in my own concerns, questions and through the tension of how others saw me. What I learned as well is that the believe is not just believing in God and His ability to be exactly as He says He is, it is also used for a means of obedience. Obey the Lord and what He says you are to do, believe in Him and what He has said both in His Word and in the ways He confirms in your own life. Nothing in this world compares or even makes sense to how God can and does do all things and this is why He commands us to constantly get in the Word to know Him, seek Him and Trust in Him most. Thank you, Lord, for redeeming me and caring for everything! While it my be in contrast to this world’s ways, His ways are far greater and more worthy of recognition than anything. Are you going to believe?