Water Your Worth

Life. Every bit of who you are and what you experience is personal to you. Every feeling you have, every thought and every choice… all personal. Then add a child and the ways you choose to raise them is… personal. Even your walk with Jesus is highly personal. These are all valuable aspects to take personally and to walk in accordance with the person you are, are becoming and were made to be.

It gets tricky sometimes when we are attached to others and life changes and even more tricky when life is constantly changing. There is nothing wrong with and it is definitely not personal when someone chooses to take space or maybe doesn’t even have the space to keep up with anything or anyone else.

I used to try to keep up with so many people and often was the one that did the keeping up. It was a lot of effort and energy and sometimes wasted as some people just didn’t want to be kept up with. I will admit that there were some situations that I used to definitely take personally and allowed myself to be hurt when it really had nothing to do with me personally. Dynamics change, people grow up and or a part… life.

While it may not make sense to others, I don’t think it is really supposed to. I have no idea what is going on (really) with a lot of people and while I continue to draw more and more to the most important focuses for me personally (God and my child), my want or even ability to keep up with others is just not where it was at one point. Maybe I was filling space or found comfort in being the one that did check in on and with others and now it is just too important to be discerning and wise with every bit of time and involvement, there is also a deeper satisfaction to life now. Add on top of all that, living out of a suitcase and always moving around is an even bigger task to keep up with on my own that is just too much to keep others up with also.

A friend earlier tried to apoligize to me for taking their own time away to reflect, heal and come together properly. My response as it would be for anyone, “You have nothing to apologize for. I know all too well how important it is to withdraw, Christ Himself shows us that it is important to honor these times to draw closer to and with Him.” Life is personal but our reactions and or responses don’t need to be. I think the best thing we can do when faced with the opportunity to feel like distance is a personal attack is to take a moment to just ask ourselves if it is loving, if it is a good use of time and honestly (not trying to be mean) does it really matter? Every personal journey is worth exploring and He is worth the time and effort to draw closer to. Take the time, get personal, your life is worth getting closer to Him.