Water Your Worth

“This very day your life will be demanded of you…” Often times through our history God has shared when life was going to be done and I could not help but feel a comfort with that. While some might find it a little cruel, I actually see it as a great decency and lovingkindness. I recently finished the book of Numbers again and am so grateful for the continued ways to see things and how He highlights aspects of worth to pay attention to. The way Adonai tells Aaron and Moses that they will be taken to be with their ancestors because of how they reacted with the rock of Meribah is the inspiration with this post. There is another story that Jesus tells in how a man stored up for himself his abundance and God says to him, “You fool! This very night your life will be demanded from you. Then who will get what you have prepared for yourself?”

All these men that were mentioned and even communicated with on when they would no longer be living in this world got haughty and caught up in themselves and reacted from others instead of honoring God. God is the One and Only reason we live, have anything and have any power or talent or… anything. Our life is His – both in the sense of how He created it and can take it. Therefor, He deserves every bit of thanksgiving and recognition that comes to us, through us and is.

I remember back when I cried out to Him to take me from this world and this life saying, “I just can’t anymore. I’m no good at life and I can’t make it work… please just find a way to take me home.” His response was simple, complex, honest and loving all at once – “No. You still have work to do.” I have been able to wake up to realizing the depths of this seeming simple response the more I am brought through and into who I am – if I were to die at that time I most surely would have ended up in damnation and He not only didn’t want that for me but also had other plans that I had not even begun (yet). While I was hurting and most certainly meant what I asked of Him, this response was painful and hopeful but, he didn’t leave me at that. He continually meets me at where I am in the process and leads forward on what is next in order to clean up and be as He intended for me to be from the beginning. And, it is the same with you…

He is a compassionate and gracious Father. He wants the best for us all and individually and definitely doesn’t want us to be in forever agony and… He wants to be turned to and be given glory through. There are plenty of Israelites whose life ended pretty quickly because of their disrespect to the Lord after being shown a lot of grace and mercy along the way and did not get the decency of being told it would be. So what can we take from this? Honor God, keep yourself and house in order (towards Him) and be ready – it may not be shared in a way to be prepared for and it may not be shared at all, but the sooner we set our eyes and hearts accordingly the more He can work with and set things in a way to life instead of agony.