Water Your Worth

Seems this week’s theme is tied around the heart and Spirit… so let’s continue.

I don’t always know how to explain it nor do I think words can fully do it the eloquence it deserves but I will do my best in sharing the ways tears of crying are so different than the tears that just flow from the connection with Him. One thing I have found lovely is that my child, who is also rather sensitive and connected doesn’t question the tears that are Holy Spirit initiated; but, when mom cries out of frustration or when we got the opportunity to talk about the bunny that died, he wants to know why I am crying and sometimes cries with me but, there seems to be an innate feeling or understanding when tears just fall out by connection with Holy Spirit, Yeshua and all that our Father does. (For the record, the bunny was a wild orphan that we found abandoned at a house we were caring for, we did our best to care for the little guy, but he still ended up dying.)

Again, I don’t know how to share this fully but there for some reason there is a push to do so. Maybe someone is trying to understand what is happening to them lately and this can help.

There are times when I feel His presence or feel this deep tie pulling at my heart as I read the Word, interact with someone, listen to a message or even go into a place. A feeling takes over and tears literally just well up and all out of my eyes without crying. My heart feels like it expands into my throat and there is nothing can be said, just felt and allowed with a profound awareness of real LOVE.

The most recent times this has happened, today (haha) it is almost every day, I was reading for us out of my child’s Jesus Storybook Bible and every time it talked about God’s great plan I felt that tug of deep connection, the other time is listening to our newest favorite music, Project of Love, where scripture is played into Holy Spirit filled songs. I recommend you take a listen to the music for yourself and see what you feel (no this is not an intentional plug, just a suggestion to see if you are able to connect in some way).

I think to anyone on the outside or not connected, it would seem like I am going through “something” if they saw the amount of tears that just fell from my face. Even in prayer, there are times when just simply giving thanks for our food brings a tear out of seemingly nowhere. All I can say is that there is something so natural and yet supernatural about how these tears appear, feel and flow. I don’t why there is a push to share this post or who might need this as it feels like a bunch of expressions smooshed together in a post… but, this was what I was given to share today. A feeling that can only be felt, not portrayed.