Water Your Worth

It is time to wake up!

Due to the current opportunity in our living at the moment there is not always a set way of doing things – I believe this is one of the many ways that God has allowed me to grow my roots deeper into Him as there is no other real consistency in our lives. Being at different areas and going to different churches along the way has been interesting and eye opening as well.

“I need you to see this…” He told me once while at a church denomination that I had never been to before and I started to notice that He was continuing this sentiment with me at each new experience with a church that we went to. There isn’t any condemnation associated but rather a request to be open to Him and what it is that is needed for my own growth with and for Him. While I struggle with a lot of the things that have been man made and established as the norm without question… I am also sensitive to the Holy Spirit presence and can see that while there is still quite a lot that I don’t understand He still moves.

The word easter was one of those things that He lit a fire in me about and asked me to talk about which I did boldly and immediately as He directed on my youtube channel. This is not something that needs to be associated with Christ and in fact since learning about has really bothered me how wide spread it really is. Not to mention the actual celebration of our Lord’s resurrection is spread out between different days based on the denominations. “We are called to be unified as one church and one body in and for Him” and as mentioned in a previous post (My Way), we are to be in alignment with His teachings not constantly going against one another and especially not allowing pagan ways to be mixed in. This is also a tough topic among most in regards to the celebration of christmas as there is not an exact date recorded for when Christ was born and what has been established as such was put in place to be acknowledged is… man made. Now, before I start going to far down rabbit holes that takes time to shed through and allow in minds, let me focus on what this post was intended for.

I remember as a child going to church and loving it but… also questioning it because the people (family included) were not living in accordance to what we were being taught. I had questions and answers were not guided in the Word but by shallow understandings in themselves (no offense or disrespect intended, I believe this is a pattern that we as humans do not realize we are brought into a programming of until we choose to actually wake up). Most of us do not even realize that there is a programming or a routine that is being set in place to keep a cycle going, to keep a veil over the eyes…

Being an outsider almost always makes it easier to be more acutely observant and aware – how am I greeted, what is the message, what songs are sung, what is moving and how are people participating and what does the Holy Spirit share with me?, are almost always moving and observing all at once at every visit. Here is what I am realizing and want to focus on most today: while there is movement and scriptural focus at times, there is something missing – heart, life and real presence. What I am seeing is that everyone is so consumed in life (rightfully so, life is…. a lot) but, there is an exhaustion that has been allowed in people’s beings that is a whole new level of distraction and separation. While we are supposed to be uplifted, encouraged and brought into more life through church and communal worship with and for the One True Living God it has steadily become an item on the weekly to-do list and isn’t at all looked forward to or celebrated. Life has become such a routine of doing and then checking out with shows and other brain sucking, life draining media outlets that going to church once a week has become something that is done but not taken any further – in studies, through the days or even in how one lives outside of that one appearance.

I know that this is possibly a triggering post but I also know that that is the point as one doesn’t actually change unless they wake up and take steps to. And I by no means am better than anyone at this. My current season is just very different than most and makes it more possible for me to observe and allow for Holy Spirit to lead but, I have my days where I get overwhelmed with sensing, mom’ing and teaching/answering that I choose times of distraction and checking out every now and then as well. It takes time to peel back the veil… I started realizing how distracting things were when there was more emphasis on what was going on in the world and with others than how I could go deeper into the Word and the wonderful thing about how Jesus works is that He always meets us where we are and invites to go deeper from that point. I shared in a few posts about mindfulness versus mindlessness and also about paying attention… this is still a common thread here – What are you paying most attention to? How are you allowing yourself to be led? “They who looked to Him were radiant… (psalm 34:6)” comes to mind at this moment as I type this with the realization that we who turn our faces to Him, like Moses, shine differently…

I could literally take this post in so many ways and for a lot longer than I think most actually like to read anymore, so maybe it best to come to a form of pause for now.

Are you awake to how you are moving and presenting yourself in life? Are you participating with the Creator or other? Have you taken any amount of pause to see if what you are about to do is going to add to life or drain? And lastly… do you realize how very important your participation actually is?!?! You my dear are so very worth every effort it took to bring to life. Don’t you want to live according to that worth? The more one wakes up the more others wake up as well – yes, it can be uncomfortable and yes it will take layers and time but again… worth it.