Water Your Worth

I believe we all have moments when we have even the smallest thought of, ‘Am I making a difference? Do I matter?…’ Even if it is not spoken out loud it still a regular and age old tactic from the enemy – questioning if you are anything and if God even sees… While it is a great temptation and quite possibly easy to see, it is most definitely a great and terrible lie.

I have personally encountered several moments with this lie and there was one time that was so brief recently that I almost didn’t realize that it came up – progress. I have come to accept with great appreciation that all that I have been experiencing is growth and allowance to be as intended to be and know that God loves me but, as mentioned, it is still a little nag when you look at the wilderness circumstances and have no idea about anything anymore… yet, there is a greater knowing that He is indeed faithful and His love is far greater than any other. Anyways… This tiny thought passed through and was actually dismissed but God still did something with it to confirm His presence and our importance.

After receiving a recommendation for a church to visit we go and had not yet been to this denomination before and like every time we go to a new church (all the time) we go ready to worship with others and have no expectations. We get in and our greeted in kind by the Pastor and I am pleased with the interaction and respect in regards to safe space acceptance for and with my child. Then the Deacon comes and introduces herself starting with a, “Hi. Have we met before?” to which my response is, “No.” (as I have never been there before and did not recognize her). I introduce myself and child and then she gasps and says this: “I have met you. At the coffee shop.” And as soon as she mentions this tears start rolling down my face.

A flashback takes place reminding me of that very day. It was late August and we were in a hotel room across the highway and this coffee shop was a nice outing but that particular day I was feeling rather sensitive. Not for myself but for all of life and creation. It was as if I could feel the ground crying out for change and proper life. We get to the coffee shop and this woman was sitting with her dog, who came to greet us, and another woman. Dogs greeting us is pretty common since we care for them and other animals so it didn’t phase us and opened the door for conversation on how we care for animals and homes for our living. For whatever reason I opened up on how my heart was hurting for all existence that day and there was compassion in the receiving of that and then a request if we would accept prayer and we of course accepted. I don’t remember the exacts of the prayer but I knew the Lord was orchestrating that for me to be seen and to have a prayer made. As we walked inside and said our enjoy the days and God Bless you’s, there was a comfort allowed that eased the pains that I was feeling and kept me in a place of calm. Praise God.

So, eight months later this woman greets me at the church that she ministers at and lets me know that she remembers me and my child…

We truly have no idea how much God uses us through our days and what kind of impact might be had along a seemingly nothing or maybe even downtrodden day. But, what we can come to conclusion with this story is that He uses all for His glory and the good of those that seek Him. Another thing I have noticed in how He has been working through my refining process is how He circles back to things for completions and showing His awesome ways and Blessings for new life and promises. I have no idea what is next but, I know He knows how much I need Him and look to Him and I believe that He will continue to wow me even in such a simple thing as reconnecting with a stranger along the way.

Throughout the Bible there is a Love that endures forever, is Faithful and keeps All His Promises… “All came to pass.” (Joshua 21:45) Hallelujah! I cannot begin to explain it all as I don’t even have the ability to see it all and that is exactly the point, “Do not be wise in your own eyes…” (Proverbs 3:7) He truly sees all and sees you through and in all and there is absolutely no way for us to know the plans that He has for each of us unless we let Him take the lead.

Now, some of you might think that this is just a thing that could happen to anyone and I will tell you this; we have seen so many people and been in so many different areas the past three years that it was easy for me to think that there is barely any impact upon the people we pass along the way. Even just this one interaction, we had been in ten different areas since that coffee shop meeting.

Point being is this. You matter, I matter and God is present. He can use anything and everything for His glory and to prove that He is with us. Have you asked Him to show up? It is a scary but worthy request depending on where you are in your life but, I assure you that He hears, knows and will present Himself in some form. Are you open to allow that?